Thursday, March 19, 1992

March 19,


Today has been the worst day of my life.  Not only did I find out that father had to beat Tituba to make her confess to being a witch, but I have to move out of Salem and live with father's scary cousins.  Fining out that father beat Tituba made me so angry at him I wanted to admit that the accusations weren't entirely truthful but then I realized what that would make me like.  I also realized that the only reason he did all of that was for my benefit so I wouldn't be scared or threatened.  That is also why I am leaving Salem.  He doesn't want all of this witch hysteria to ruin my life for good.  He just wants to protect me.  I am sort of glad that I am leaving.  Abby has been very controlling lately and I want to get away from her for a little.  She is starting to let all of the attention make her into a different person.  I am excited to get away from all of the drama and controversy surrounding me.  

Sunday, March 1, 1992

March 1,

Today was Tituba's trial.  I did my best to follow Abby's lead but I almost broke a few times.  It nearly killed me to do this to poor Tituba.  I wish I didn't have to do it but I can't let my reputation be ruined.  During her trial Tituba confessed to being a witch in front of everyone and I did everything that I could to not cry.  Abby starred at me with a mean yet encouraging look in her eyes.  During a break in the trial Abby pulled me outside and scolded me for acting weak and I told her I couldn't do it anymore.  She looked at me furiously and explained that Tituba could actually be a witch, and she cursed us and that our experiment didn't actually do anything.  I cried.  I would never believe Tituba was really a witch I trusted her too much.  Tituba only did things to better the world why did it have to be her?  Abby then calmed me down and we went back into the courtroom where the trial continued.  Tituba went on to say that she only loved me and never meant to cause me any harm, which made me want to cry even more.  Tituba was found guilty, along with the two other women that were being tried.  On the way home from the courthouse Abby proceeded to say that today was a success.  I cried for the rest of the night with no interruption.